What Do They Got, That I Don't Got?

Some guys have all the luck
Some guys have all the pain
Some guys have all the breaks
Some guys do nothing but complain
-Rod Stewart


Throughout the last couple of years, I've constantly had these three goals in my head...

1) Independence
2) A Career
3) A Significant Other

Now, as I look around my peer groups, I realize all around me that alot of them have this. One friend has independence (aka bachelor pad), and a good career. Another friend not only has a signficant other, but he's on the cusp of getting married. I often tell my friends that their successes are my successes, and how I love watching them accomplish their goals and dreams. But sometimes, theres that question that always arises, "what do they got, that I dont got?"

This blog isnt going to be a laundry list of my complaints, and vendetta's against the lucky. In fact it's going to be about my candor and convictions. Tonight, I want to talk about one of, what I think, the worst feelings: Jealousy.

Jealousy doesnt allow me to share my friends successes. Instead it just allows me to wallow up in anger and loneliness. Sometimes (well, maybe even most of the time) I have jealousy as a default response. Let's say my friend gets in a relationship. Instead of my first reaction being joy, and happiness, wanting to wish my friend the best, theres that slight reaction of jealousy, and almost even anger. But anger at what? Myself? Society? or worse... God?

Jealousy is something that I need to get rid of to become more emotionally, and spiritually healthy. Again I feel as if its one of the worst feelings in the world, and its one of those sins that I have trouble with.

So instead of thinking, "well what do they got, that I dont got?" I just want to vanquish jealousy, and say "wow, im so glad they're doing well, and I'm so glad to share they're excitement! let's all go to Olive Garden! I'm buying!" :)